Battling Being Enough
Do you ever allow yourself to experience a wave of emotion? Perhaps you are laying in bed thinking of how the day will unfold and then all of sudden a feeling of sadness, dispair or anxiety comes over you. I experience this often nowadays in being an entrepreneur. I am a budding boss babe of an EFT practice so I feel uncertain, insecure, anxious, exhilarated, fulfilled and inspired all in one day sometimes.
I woke up one morning as described above and felt anxious about doing enough to help myself progress as a practitioner. I began spiraling into different outcomes if I didn’t do well with beginning a business; i.e. not having enough money, going back to a 9 to 5 job, and being miserable doing so. This thought pattern moved into fear of failure and not feeling good enough to have a healing practice in the first place.
In the past, I would push these feelings away and forge ahead or acquiesce to the fear and give up. Nowadays, I have learned to let myself feel my feelings for awhile. So, that day I allowed my fears to appear…some of my core wounds knocked at the door and showed up as guests at the breakfast table. Fear of failure, fear of not doing enough, fear of not having enough, and fear of not being enough all enjoyed a egg and sausage english muffin sandwich with cheese that crisp fall morning.
After breakfast, I sat down on the couch and let that fearful part of me have a voice. I held space for all of those fears to be expressed outwardly and even allowed the tears to flow. I accepted that in that moment I was scared. Then I began tapping to help shift the feelings in my body so I can feel more balanced and centered again. With each round of EFT I felt the stress and anxiety release in a deeper way. By the time I finished I felt stronger and ready to jump into the day and its tasks.
This is the type of self-care that has become a necessity for me. To carve time out of a busy schedule and take care of my body and its feelings is more productive for me than any other vice that otherwise numbs those needs.
I suspect as the days progress and I continue to step along this path, I will tap again on the fears that come up around being a business owner…fears are only human.
